Personal Entries #8

I keep falling asleep.... to early during the day and I end up waking up at 2 or 3 in the morning... I felt so weak yesterday that I passed out on my bed. What's happening? I don't know. Am I keeping a lot of things in that it's affecting my health? I don't really know. I want to know though... this doesn't look so good. Fuck. Not now. Not during the holidays. Just let me get through the holidays and then my body can start fucking up. Not this year... PLEASE... I want to spend christmas here at home. I want to go to Italy for new years. fucking hell. Don't take that away from me... Please...?